-Yukiko- Deep thoughts. Insanity.

2006-02-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

I decided to reveal my new livejournal address: http://pinkish-yukik0.livejournal.comI admit. I want people to read. Whats the purpose of live-journaling when no one reads. =(Please Re-Link me. You guys might wanna join livejournal too. Its good or at least you can add me as a friend there then "only to friends" entries can be read.See you people at LiveJournal =)

2006-02-22T03:34:00.000+08:00

Painting in e middle of the night.A paint I made of me and my friend:Duh.. I lost the link. There is supposed to be a replay of how I draw this f-ugly piece of artwork.Its my first attempt at computer art. Don't be a meanie and laugh at me.Screen Shot: Yes.. I know. Dont tell me anything I know I suck at computer art. My first attempt and it made the both of us like 2 aged and wrinkled ppl.

2006-02-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

I am officially abandoning this blog for livejournal. Its good. Might be blogging here once in awhile until I got my livejournal working well and after I figured out how to use livejournal properly. Ask me If you want the link to it. I publish entries there now. Take care ppl.

2006-02-15T16:30:00.000+08:00

I wishyesterday could last forever.It was the best Valentine's day I've had.. the sweetest one.Though yesterday I spend only a short time with him.. but very happy le la. Can't ask for more also.Only hope that he can stop drinking.. always tell him that its bad for health he don't wanna listen.I still can sense that he doubt me. Maybe its because of a incident last time. He is the last person I

2006-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

Arena (known to self and others) friendly, self-conscious, sentimental Blind Spot (known only to others) able, adaptable, calm, cheerful, clever, confident, dependable, energetic, helpful, introverted, kind, knowledgable, loving, mature, modest, nervous, organised, quiet, responsive, searching, silly, tense, trustworthy, warm Façade (known only to self) caring, observant Unknown (known to

2006-02-11T01:13:00.000+08:00

I am falling off the edge soonLife has been pretty hectic for me.I just completed my UID demo and sumitted my OOP assignment today. Crazy programming but I kind of love it. Its pretty fun though it required lots of brain juices.I kindda crapped during UID demo. I lost count of the number of times that I actually wasn't prepared for a presentation. Adding on to that, sometimes I have not even look

2006-02-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day is nearingEver had the feeling when your heart skipped a beat he/she called? Ever had the feeling when you are just happy/satisfied when you see him/her happy?Ever had the feeling of being relieved just to see him/her ok?Ever had the feeling of being over the moon when he/she ask you out?Crush? I think its love.-deleted due to privacy-Some people might feel the same way as I do

2006-02-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

Review of "I not Stupid too"Before I write anything on the topic. I shall write about what happened yesterday.. for a reason.I watched "I not stupid too" yesterday. It was awesome. There are parts where I was actually so touched I cried. Only 1 movie made so touched that I cried in the cinema before and that is actually "2002" which was years ago. "I not stupid too" adds on to my "So touching it

2006-02-06T01:13:00.000+08:00

This is so true.. I got this from my archives. http://yukikomel.blogspot.com/2003_12_21_yukikomel_archive.htmlThere is alot more in the link.SCORPIO WOMANA simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tellright way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displaysherself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in hercharacter.A Scorpio woman has her

2006-02-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love is patient, Love is kind.no wonder I'm like that.

2006-02-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

A crappy post. (full of sing-lish words. Haha.)I'm back bloggingon the demand of some pig. Haha. Very thankful to that pig la. Always listen to me yada yada yada.. a bunch of bullshit but he always unwilling to go play pool loh. Always say treat me go pool for one whole day. Swimming pool. ZzI'm like so bored now. That pig go cycling. Scarly drop inside drain. HAHA. Btw, I sincerly hereby thank

2006-01-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

blogger blogging blog.Happy New Year!! 新年快乐！！Wee happily.. melly mel is back. Haha. I shop for CNY clothes yesterday. So many people in town. OMG. Its damn hard to even just walk into just one of those stores at Far East. Those stores were mainly pretty small. Its so fun shopping like that. I dont mean shopping in cramped stores but the fun of being able to shop like Crazy! I went with a fellow

2006-01-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

random chinese post.randomly ripped from lyrics of some songs by rainie to express how i feel. Haha.The full lyrics are below.爱美+理想情人+只想爱你暧昧让人受尽委屈找不到相爱的证据何时该前进何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气暧昧让人变得贪心直到等待失去意义无奈我和你写不出结局放遗憾的美丽停在这里穿上洋裝看著手錶時間快到心碰碰的跳換了新唇膏把頭髮弄好要你看到我的好我喜歡看你走路充滿自信說話時候你的專注眼神溫柔的表情笑容裡的天真我相信　找不到有比你更好的人可不可以告訴我標準　不要讓我一直等我终于还是说了一句我爱你还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨心跳的声音像舞动奇迹你看着我说千万不要爱上你因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停你那么冷静忽远又忽近

2006-01-15T01:39:00.000+08:00

I got the song deleted from my blog but havent figure out how to get it off from my yahoo upload site.Its damn dumb to pay 1000 bucks or smthing just to play the song on a website. So.. sorry guys gotta get it off though I know how nice 5566 songs are.Haha. Got to get some sleep. Till then.

2006-01-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

Damn it.. Even blogger is fucking up on me.I've got tons of stuffs and finally broke down.I don't understand why a relationship with a friend of several YEARS is still so fragile. It fuckingly haunts me back down on how we always quarrelled over MINOR THINGS. I'm only a girl.. only human. I will err and I am no perfect. If things happened the other way round, I swear I'll definitely get angry but

2006-01-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

Its me again.Just came back and haven't bathe. Wait. Don't go yet.. I still smell nice hehe.By the way, I watched a movie this morning with him loh.. The movie is so lame but hilarious. I was like almost LOL. Haha..Anyway, I just hope he is just as sweet to me as to whatever he wrote and whoever he meant on his msn nick. I'm so afraid that I would once again hear those words "Its impossible, I

2006-01-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

to be happy or not? I really don't know. I'm really afraid that I'm given hopes now and it'll be dashed in a moment. I wanna spend every moment with him before the time he really tell me "I tried and its impossible". Scary isn't it?Still, Love ya.

2006-01-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

random rantHis friends are more important than me. It has always been like that. Well, anyway I'm used to it and in no position to say anything also. So I should just accept my fate.I wanted to be understanding to him because it was for some impt stuffs and not recreational one but I just can't bring myself to do it. I know he have been really tired from working and stuffs like that so I try not

2006-01-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

rain rain go away.Its been raining.. since morning. I can't go out to get the stuffs I want and am stuck at home. Sigh. So here I am blogging while listening to some music and chatting with some friends on MSN. No-life. Haha. I've already completed MOST of my part of workfor the IAC dumbass project. Whew. Finally.. after for like dragging for several weeks.Its so boring. Duh. I wanna get a job

2006-01-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

random.I'm really going crazy. Its like I've been looking so forward to tomorrow's event but poof.. no need to go liao. Sigh. I don't even want to make the basic effort to change color or whatever I used to do to make this post look pretty.I'm getting really sick. Everyone have been like encouraging me to go on and not to give up but I really feel like giving up. I'm coming to the edge of

2005-12-31T01:10:00.000+08:00

Thats too much comprimizing. No matter how hard I try, its not the same anymore. Tell me what should I do..

2005-12-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

random: Christmas + Shopping therapy = JOY!!I'm kind of feeling no better from the past few days. Damnation to Yukiko. So dependent on people. Cannot be alone. Haha. I love social activities but only with close friends.I went jogging but excessively in a try to forget all those dumb problems. Actually its not dumb. Its just that these 2 problems have been bugging me for like a week already. By

2005-12-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

Shit. I'm getting cranky. I've probably been on too much stress. No more relying on others. Somebody slap me and wake me up please. I've been on too many things and when released of all of it at once, I get cranky.I'm repeating! I shall stop.

2005-12-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

rant: In a blink of a eye..Its almost the end of 2005. In a blink of a eye, I'm 17 for over a month now. Come to think of it, I realise that I have lived this year in vain. A totally crappy year I had.I've been on a emotional ride for the entire year. From being happy to bitterness to futher bitterness to elated then followed by now.. which is fucked up.I couldn't help it. I find that I've been

2005-12-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

When blogging is no longer blogging(stolen from that mail i got)I just received a mail from np on "Guide to Great Blogging Experience"I don't see why it could be a "Great Blogging Experience" anymore with this "rules.1.Be mindful of what you discuss on blogs and other forms of online discourse because what you write will remain public for a long time, so be aware of the need to protect your own

2005-11-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

Boring School, Ugly heartsI can't take it and had to blog. I was very pissed off. What a school I am in even the lecturers suck.I can't believe even lecturers talk behind others back.. moreover its behind a student's back. Obviously that student is me. The first thought that comes to my mind when I heard it from my friend is "What The Fuck?!". Why even lecturers are like that. I don't give a damn

2005-11-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

random blabber: The purpose of this template & blah blah..I was very late for class today but thank god the lecturer never mark me late nor mark me absent. He probably marked me late after I signed the attendance sheet. (Hopefully not) I've got nothing to do now. Basically because I am fasting on computer games. PERSERVERE!! In order to do so I'm gonna write a super long post so that at least I

2005-11-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

random blabber: boring lessonsI'm actually blogging in the library now. Lesson have been pretty boring. I cannot concentrade at all just now. Hopefully I would understand whatever is taught just nw by reading the slides. I ended up playing games with my friend just now. I was seated right at the back thats why I wasn't noticed. Maybe I was.. because the lecturer came up right to the back row and

2005-11-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

random blabber: Red!!I've dyed my hair brown and highlighted red. However.. I don't know what happened to the brown. Its all reddish now. I'm dead meat. Its such a bright colour. Hopefully tomorrow all the lecturer say nothing about it la. Talk about scaring the hell outta people. Haha. I think I'm gotta do just that tomorrow. Obviously not on purpose because even myself couldn't get used to the

2005-11-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

random blabber: (Grow... to a Spiritual GIANT!!) I pray for a breakthrough during this period of fasting, pray that god would refresh me and that I also grow to become a spiritual giant during this period of time. Amen.Yesterday was actually the first day of fasting to prepare for christmas harvest. I was pretty excited about it. This was the first time I fast. That explains why I actually made

2005-11-08T19:04:00.000+08:00

random doodlep.s: This entry is pretty much pointless. Much more used for me to rant. You could read if you wanna find out what happen to me today. Otherwise, skip this.I'm sick.. again. The lectures today sucks. Communication Toolkit and Individual And Community.I wanted to sleep in class today but thanks to the rules we all had set for ourselves, I can't. There's this 10% marks which consists

2005-11-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

What a cool day I had - back to postingYesterdayI had loads of fun at service. Praising god, sermons and stuffs like that. Amazing how god had changed me. I can sense him already moulding me to the person he want me to be. I've learned to be forgiving since a friendship "incident" I had. Now I no longer just have the heart willingness but I now also am willing to do things to get closer to God. I

2005-11-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

http://dwarfhamsters.blogspot.com/Created this site to sell off my hamsters. I have too many -.-

2005-11-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

I need to sell my dwarf hamsters off quick. Too many already. Anybody interested send me a e-mail @ mellissa_tan@hotmail.com or msg me. Thanks.

2005-11-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

randomI've got nothing to do online. Don't feel like gaming either. I even missed the first day of sch. I really gotta plan and make a goal or something so I wouldn't end up being a oh-so-boring person.I hate staying at home alone then going online yet got nothing to do online. Maybe I'm just not used to being alone. Maybe I'm just used to having someone's company like I had for the past few days

2005-10-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

blah blah.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------God never fails us but human willThats it. I've had enough of me. *Shakes myself* Wake up.Maybe in times like this only will I get closer to the lord. I don't think I will ever grow more spiritually or mature if my path of life is without obstacles. I guess this is just one of them. I don't

2005-10-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

RandomSorry about the arrows. I'm just being pure lazy to delete. Rip-off from one of my hotmail messages. Reason for this post is merely just to cover the past few meaningless ones. =)Aries ( March22- April 20)Compatible With:Very Good: Leo Cancer Sagittarius Pisces Taurus LibraGood: Scorpio Capricorn Aquarius AriesAries Man:Aries man is very intense and tend to go to extremes. Heis very

2005-10-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

I'm gotten over by the old "Mel"Funny how come I keep having thoughts of him in my mind. How to clear? Can i delete it?I am really damn tired of it. Wanna ask him some things I have on mind but no guts. How come last time that "Mel" come unto me again. Its irritating when your mind keep going "ask or dont ask" over and over again. Well.. I hope he reads my blog. At least I gets something off my

2005-10-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

Should say or should not say.Sigh. If only I could lie in your arms again.

2005-10-14T05:23:00.000+08:00

Blog before I be goneFinally.. something not plain black anymore. I found this template on blogskin.com . It was kind of cool. Had a hard time looking for this christian song. I want "divine exchange". Not that I do not have it but can't find anywhere to upload. Multiply is good but the server screwed up. 5.36 MB became a 46 kb song.I love this current song too.I just hate it when people

2005-10-14T01:49:00.000+08:00

2005-10-10T19:22:00.000+08:00

Sorry.. video would be down until I have the time to recreate another one. Damn that server for deleting my stuffs. I would be gone for a week or so overseas. Cool huh? My hamster, kiki gave birth to 5 babies.. ohhh.. how adorable. Haha. Anyone wanna volunteer to take care of my hamsters while I'm away from SG? Tag me. =)

2005-09-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

Big Craze Over IdolsI'm not talking about anyone else. Its about me. I so love 5566 and Jay very much. However, this post would be on 5566's autograph session yesterday. If I had the time or maybe when I am not too lazy to update, I will write about the event. A picture speaks a thousand words. I'm gonna let the pictures do the talking except for the occasional captions and rantings. So here goes

2005-09-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

Breeze.The Computing Mathematics test today was a breeze. Practically everything I studied was in the test. It was quite a easy paper. I will probably score quite well or even full marks provided I don't have any careless mistakes. All thanks to those who prayed for me and of course my lord, Jesus. I wanna thank all my brothers, sisters, shepherd and also friends for being there for me at my

2005-08-15T14:42:00.000+08:00

Arrays are driving me crazy. Computing Mathematics is boring. I'm going nuts. Somebody save meeee...

2005-08-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

I just want to runaway from reality.. to my loved ones and ppl who love me.

2005-07-31T20:31:00.000+08:00

Evo retreat and My faith levelI'm blessed. I'm happy to have Jesus in my life. I really want to thank Yin Luan for letting me and bringing me to know Christ.. to receive salvation and be saved. ThAnk U!! =)The evo retreat today was great. Of course the saturday service too.. =) I know my faith level is growing and so is my knowledge about god. I reached at about 10+ am at Pasir Ris. I overslept.

2005-07-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited.. so happy..Guess what. I finally took up the first step.. that is to accept Jesus Christ into my heart as my lord and savior. Yin Luan led me throughout the Sinner's prayer on the phone, explained to me the gospel and also drew the bridge diagram for me. At that point I was feeling pretty confused because I knew my parents would definitely disapprove of me being a christian. Still

2005-07-24T02:18:00.000+08:00

Get to know Mellissa betterYour view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything

2005-07-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

MRT journey was ..I sleep in MRT everytime to and fro from school. Its a long journey to my school. When I was still in secondary school, I use to wake up 15 mins before assembly time and still make it in time to school. That won't happen anymore.. for 3 long years. It actually pays to stay awake in a MRT. Its odd how I manage to stay awake today on the journey to and fro from school. On the

2005-06-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

Bored..

2005-06-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

-The More I think about it the more angry i become-To * (Names not mentioned for privacy)Does it mean that I keep quiet then I'm all in the wrong?Hey.. It takes two hands to clap.What has my MSN nick got to do with you?So what if I won't love another guy anymore.Don't you think you are too much to ask me to become a nun? Its none of your business dude. Its bloody obvious you are replying to my

2005-06-19T09:55:00.000+08:00

1st Ladi Lyrics - Never Be Replaced Lyrics[Chorus]Baby I love you and i'll never let you goBut if I have to boy I think that you shouldknowAll the love we make can never be eraseAnd i promise you that you will never bereplacedBaby I love you and I'll never let you goBut if I have to boy I think that you shouldknowAll the love we make can never be erase And i promise you that you will never be

2005-06-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

If I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to get a "HEART" or a "U" to get "HURT".But I'd rather choose "U" and get "HURT" than have a "HEART" without "U~

2005-06-17T02:31:00.000+08:00

-The First Time..-I can't believe that I could actually fall asleep practically everywhere I was. Lol.. I was bathing just now then I kept knocking my head onto the walls without knowing it but felt the pain later. Lol.. Darn funny right? I was then only half-awake. Almost fainted inside the bathroom. I could even fall asleep when eating. Dots..Anyway, back to the topic. I'm talking about how

2005-06-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Life sucks. Me too. Better off dead or I'll be taking up & wasting space on earth. FUCK.

2005-06-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

~Updates on a week after school reopened~Been really busy this few days & was also damn tired. Projects, projects and more projects.. Assignments also.. Zzz.. Gotta keep this post short.Week one was quite fun.. All games not much work. Its still orientation week i think. School reopened on 24th May. Its all mainly about bonding games. Was still quite enthu then such as making friends, play games

2005-04-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

J: Your Beauty liesin Dreams. Day-dreamer, creative and forever lostin thoughts. You're adreamer, wanting more in your life than you havenow. Though you a lot of yourdreams never seem to leave your own mind. You'vecreated your own little worldinside that head of yours and you're most beautifulwhen your mind is inthe clouds with sparkles in your eyes. You'd ratherbe asleep than awake andpeople

2005-04-07T03:11:00.000+08:00

Saying "forever" is naive.."John" and "Kate" are just imaginery names..Imagine this scenario.Kate meets boy by the name of John. They met each other at the cafe Kate works at. They were only teenagers at that time. John was attracted to Kate at the first sight of her so he approached Kate for her number. As Kate love making friends, she gave him her number. They started to know each other more

2005-04-07T02:46:00.000+08:00

I'm Back~!! I gotta post 2 Posts daily if I'm Free provided that I do not have a Blogger's Block.. Haha..I've been having sleepless nights nowadays. Imagine lying on the bed for 3 - 4 hours before falling asleep. I'm terribly short of sleep~! Sigh.. Many things have been running through my mind without even myself knowing it.. I have my eyes closed but wasn't asleep. Thoughts just went wild. I'm

2005-03-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

Officially quit my job & am a professional slacker till further notice...Haha.. I'm gonna start slacking before school reopens. I've quit my job at popular because I'm so damn tired both physically and mentally. Gotta take a 1 month + break before school reopens. Yesterday was my last day at work. Its really nice to know that I'm not invisible there. I will certainly miss all of you and will

2005-02-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

-Its Funny How Stupid I can geT s0mEtimEs..-I finally decided to blog again after such a long resting period from blogging. I'm on a rest day today so I had the time to blog.Sometimes I was thinking how come some people can backstab others for so many times & not feel guilty at all. I don't understand. Its ridiculous. I mean how can you still claim that you make a really good friend when you do

2004-12-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

*soBs* I'm g0nnA mss mY colleaguEs/ShifU Under the request of Yin Luan, I updated with this post. Been working for nearly a week now.. So tired.. Zz.. Anyway it has been fun and a really good experience for me. I've learnt to become so much more independent now & not stick to my friends like glue.. Haha.. its nice working there but sometimes kindda boring cuz nothing to do. I just love helping

2004-11-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

Finally all is solved... Finally the problem is solved.. but I'm only talking about one. At least its better then nothing right? Wow.. Only now I realise that I have been flooding my own blogspot with multiple posts. I have been ranting in my past few blog entries as I was lazy to write in my own personal diary. Its much convenient to type on a online diary anyway and I don't even have to pay

2004-11-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

Is it really so harD?!! Call me a bother or whatever I don't care.. Is it really so hard to just give me a answer to my questions? Is it really so hard to just notify me to stop bothering you? I find there is alot of misunderstanding between us.. If you happen to be reading this, please just send me a sms or gimme a call. I ask for nothing more.

2004-11-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

Damn~ What else d0 y0u wAnt mE t0 d0?! I shall not mention names on a internet post but I'm sure you know who you are. If you happen to be reading this I have a message for you & don't mind me for being candid. I've did what I should do. I've apologise for what I've done for countless times and have been trying to contact you. If you really do not treasure our friendship and if our friendship is

2004-11-25T14:06:00.000+08:00

I'm s0 HappY~~!! I'vE g0tteN a j0b~ Yeah~!! I'm so happy.. after searching for so long I've finally gotten a job but still, I have something to discuss with my father.. Finally at least 1 thing settled.. I've never thought things would run so smoothly. Getting the job would be a really good experience for me. I've gotten a job at a bookshop. Shall not mention where and what the name of the

2004-11-22T10:02:00.000+08:00

Yays, I'm Back.. "O" levelS FinaLLy EndeD!!! I can't believe it.. Time seems to pass by so quickly. "O" levels have finally ended. I have put in so much hard work into the exams all this while & I am totally exhausted resulting in me being a "panda".. =/ Hopefully my hard work would be paid off & I could score well this time. That heavy burden is now put down & after 4 years I could finally have

2004-07-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

^*>Time for some updatEs bef0re I st0p upDatinG AlreaDy<*^ Wow.. Just finished taking Chinese "o"s listening compre in the morning. Somehow I was kindda unlucky today. Was also kindda worried bout lots of stuff before i took the exam. For eg. like If i've switched my hp to silent mode, is it ok if i brought the wrong piece of paper, is my ears gonna get jammed off or something.. lol. Moreover,

2004-06-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

(Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkanban)<-- gReAt MovIe Wow.. so tired today. Been to a couple of places today. One at a place very far from where I'm living. Even when I'm very tired, when I was taking the MRT, I still look outside to see if there is any sight of him because I met him a couple of times at a few mrt stations. Sigh.. didn't see him though. I'm not crazy just that i really

2004-06-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

Days Of slackinG -MissinG Him- I've already lost count of the number of days I have been slacking and also the number of days I've stay at home. Duh.. SooOooo Boring.. *sigh* Don't feel like going out.. Neither do I want to stay at home doing nothing. Zz.. There have been a few guys in and out of mah life.. Even so I still miss a particular one.. *sigh* Been so long. When I've clean forgotten

2004-06-09T13:52:00.000+08:00

You're an ESTP ESTP You're action-oriented...pragmatic (look it up!)...outgoing and realistic. In situations that require resourcefulness, you use your quickness and flexibility to find the most efficient route to accomplishing whatever needs to be done. You are lively....entertaining...fun...like to be where the action is.... like to participate fully in what's going on.... you are direct with

2004-06-05T11:14:00.000+08:00

After "O" Level chineSe As promise, gonna blog da make up for the last few days. Luckily, "o" levels chinese wasn't all that hard and I do not have da have anything da do with chinese (language) anymore. YiPee!! Haha.. Reformated my computer. Some virus got in my computer and my com does not work properly after that. Zz.. All thanks to the anti-virus software I have. It ain't working. I shall

2004-05-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

My inner child is sixteen years old! Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but whileadults might just accept that, I knowsomething's gotta change. And it's gonnachange, just as soon as I become an adult andget some power of my own. How Old is Your Inner Child? brought to you by Quizilla

2004-05-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's alittle bit cocky and usually associated withevil or arrogant,but attractive people.Youprobably just don't give a damn,but it'severyone else's fault if you don't becauseyou're too awesome to have any real faults. What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla

2004-05-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

You're depressed. Really you are. And youdefinitely have a reason. You often space outand stare at things blankly, even if you'renormally hyper and energetic. This is becausenothing really seems important anymore. Youmight just be sad right now, or you might bemanic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoaand stuff'll be ok. How Depressed are You? brought to you by Quizilla

2004-05-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

Haha.. A bunch of ignorant fo0ls.. l0lz. Duh.. I do what i want.. Haha.. Its hard da explain what happened today. Remember that in mah previous post i said i had hair extension?? It lasted for a couple of days. Hard to maintain and because I don't know how to, i had it removed. Haha at least I used mah own money.. At least now I know how it is like.. If i like it, I continue having it on. If not

2004-05-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hair Extension =/ I'm back.. its finally after mid year exams.. Got hair extension. Haha.. instant long hair but so costly. I think I'm gonna leave it there for at least 3 - 4 months before I had it removed. Alrighty. Enough of the hair extension thing. Will blog later.. Don't know what da say now. Ciao.

2004-05-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

obsessive compulsive Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla

2004-05-12T18:04:00.000+08:00

You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girlwho always has a crush and is writing theirname on all your books. You are a hopelessromantic. Waiting for that prince charming, youtake love seriously, but still play any chanceyou get. You can have a lot if boys who arefriends, but waiting for that perfectboyfriend. Sometimes you are discouragedbecause there are no sparks but even if thesmallest

2004-04-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

^Minor operati0n^ oh well.. ya. Had a minor operation on mah eye today to remove whatever hack that has been there for 1 1/2 months. It still hurts alot. I'm half-blinded. haha.. thought I could avoid having that so called operation.. still gotta get it to remove that. ArGhh.. not going da school tomorrow. Got MC for 2 days. I've never been so scared in mah life. This is it. Now its over. *

2004-04-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

Everything seemed so messed up I'll write a overall thing as to what happened. My parents are treating me as if i am invinsible. Talk to them and they ignored me. Made me think back of the conversation between me and my mum. She kept saying my brotha in all ways is better than me and blah blah blah.. then I was like replied why did she gave birth to me then and shey replied that she had no

2004-04-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

Each day is getting worse.. I feel like wanting to end my life. Complicated feelings. Even though I was at home the whole day, I still get all this mixed feelings. Frustrated, sad & confused. I don't know. No matter how much I feel like ending my life, I think back finding it isn't worth it. All this things are killing me. I lose my sanity once again doing all those crazy things. No one would

2004-04-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

^*0h well.. t0daY juSt isn't mah Day*^ Everything bad just happened to me today. I still kept my smiles as I wouldn't wanna to show myself to anyone my emotions. Its hard but I hate showing my emotions. Shall not mention what bad things happen today. It just reminds me and drives me crazy. Blah.. In a moment of folly also did many things wrongly. So many things bugging me at da same time. I'm

2004-04-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy Chorus I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy Just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty When I’m out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy Can’t change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like I’m the kind that boys fantasize I’m the kind that your momma and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like I

2004-04-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

*^EeKs!! I nEeD t0 takE a BreAtheR.. I'm DepriveD 0f oXyGeN.^* Thats it.. I'm so tired of the things happening around me. My brother is sick, stupid comments made by others and blah blah blah. Another lowest point of mah life. Zz.. I seem to be deeply affected by all those comments. The thing is that someone doesn't want me to see it. Blah.. Whatever. No one understands anyway. The whole thing

2004-04-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

--> YesterdAy <-- *^Just knowing I am remembered gave me a million reasons to smile.^* I was so tired the whole day. Chilled out with mah friends yesterday. Just being together with mah friends kept me busy from thinking of all other things. Thoughts which made me really sad. Sab and Li Ching came over to my house for until around 6+ p.M. Soon after they went off, I received a call from Yin

2004-03-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

Lawyer.. always what I wanted to be. Haha.. anything that can let me socialise. The post before this is so darn true. Considered accountant also.. Probably not the job for me. Came across it when I was viewing yL's blog. Not going da school tomorrow. Don't ask me why. My mouth is sealed. =X Ok.. off da watch T.V. I guess I'll Blog again.. "soon".

2004-03-29T18:45:00.000+08:00

What career will suit your personality? This description is a generalisation. If it rings true, you've found your career type. If it doesn’t, return to the quiz, decide whether you answered truthfully, and not by what you think you should answer. Redo your answers and read your new results. You would be very happy in a career that utilised your people skills. You want a career that allows

2004-03-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

upDateS~ Been quite busy lately. Studies, time spent to myself and with mah friends. Whatever. I'm so very occupied with so many stuffs. Guess mah only entertainment is T.V, radio and computer. Pathetic right? siGhz.. Sianzation. =/

2004-03-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

Just love this song Beyonce - Me, Myself and I. Prefer the faster version though. Me, myself & I Beyonce Knowles All the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it now... I can’t believe I believed Everything we had would last So young and naive for me to think She was from your past Silly of me to dream of One day having your kids

2004-03-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

The worst thing I ever did was to cut my own hair. Zzz.. haha.. yea.. that was what i did just now..turned out to be quite bad. Gotta get another haircut at QB later. My mum suggested it. Lol.. She didn't trust other saloons. Going all the way down to Bishan just to cut mah hair. Zz.. Will update on more after I come back .. Lol. Bye

2004-03-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I'm feeling now. I can't concentrate on studying. Angry. Loud. Confused. Whatever negative feelings.. you name it. Sometimes I really wonder why I do the things I do. I'm repulsive. Sometimes even without thinking twice, I'm helping someone who isn't even worth my help. I seem to have already lost my sanity. Whats more is that I'm helping someone who had once betrayed me.

2004-03-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

It suddenly feels so distant to talk to mah ex classmates. I get agitated easily. Haiz.. whatever it is, Its hard to open up to em'. I ended up being quite quiet and not as sociable as I am in real life. Anyway, visited the place where Yin Luan work and brought a cup of ice-cream. Wasn't too bad.. infact it tastes good. Had Chinese and maths 'test' today. It was supposed to be a week of holiday

2004-03-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

Purple! You have purple eyes! You're a dreamer,artist, poet, whatever. You enjoy all forms ofart and literature, and tend to be quite goodat creating them as well. What Color Are Your Anime Eyes? brought to you by Quizilla

2004-03-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

What color are you? (Anime Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla Got this from Clara's Blog. Same as hers. =/

2004-03-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

Its just so weird how something can happen. I wanted to listen to a song which holds some meaning.. Somhow within a split second, it was played on the radio. Coincidence? Ha.. anyway, Slept throughout almost the whole day. I guess I did not have enough sleep. Gotta finish some of mah homework already.. No holidays next week. Gotta go back to school everyday. Zz.. ByE..

2004-03-13T13:54:00.000+08:00

You are a normal angel. Innocent and pure. Full oflight and hope. You love to be around others,and really know how to have a good time. Youenjoy hanging around with mortals. You like tising, which you are great at, and like to haveothers near you. People are naturally attractedto your bubbly personaliy, and love to bearound you. Normal angels are always popular,and have lots of fans. You are

2004-03-13T13:20:00.000+08:00

Duh.. Just finished my tuition awhile ago. I was sleepy throughout and infact whatever comes out of my mouth during that 2 hour of tuition was all crap. Zz.. Was worn out from yesterday's parents meeting session. Since it was called 'Parent meeting session', there is no need for students to go right? It was a total waste of time. Zz.. Same speech all over again for such a long time.. it was

2004-03-10T18:47:00.000+08:00

Even though I still haven't got back mah paper, I knew I flunked my A-maths test. It was hard or was it that I never try hard anough? *sobsob* Luckily there is something worth to cheer me up a lil. That is my grades improved.. Only that I still flunk my sciences.. terribly. Zz.. Whatever it is, I calculated my L1R4 & L1R5 for my CA1 results.. got a 26 for L1R4 & 32 for L1R5. "Where can I ever go